Perhaps a proper introduction is due.

My name is Sarah, though I also go by the name Stella. I am a university student currently working on a degree in Sociology. What I do best is being a student, and I love studies of social theory, ethics, philosophy, human sexuality and gender studies, abnormal psychology, to name a few. I also enjoy being politically, environmentally, and philanthropically involved. I try to volunteer when I can. That being said, I don't have a lot of time for art anymore, and most likely won't be updating this account often.

A bit about my personality, now... at least from what I can tell. A psychology test told me that I am INTJ, a Mastermind. However, I don't normally go for these tests because they seem to leave out the influence of situational factors. That being said, a lot of the results told me what I think is true. I'm a hard worker who works very slow and methodically through what I am doing, who likes to be prepared, and who uses rational thinking rather than emotions. I also am somewhat more introvert, but more because I have a lot of difficulty expressing what is going on in my mind, because I don't know where to start. Naturally, I enjoy helping others, but I have a hard time getting close to people. Something I recently became aware of is that I cause myself a lot of unnecessary stress. I'm perpetually in a state of being "pissed off", or uneasy, or nervous or anxious about something, but I keep it inside and bottled up. I'd like to fix this about myself, but only get stuck at the not being able to explain how I feel level.

I tend to never finish things I start, especially when it comes to art. My sketchbook is filled with ideas and preliminary sketches, but I never get around to them. At home I have a large 4' x 5' canvas sitting in my room that is begging to be painted on.

I spend a lot of time alone, but I really love the company of my cats. They're what I miss most right now while I am away at school. I also have a history of being interested in and playing a variety of music. Instruments I have tried include drums, guitar, and violin, and I played the flute for 12 years. I was raised on classical music, specifically choral and some opera, but have grown to love a 80's new wave, 80's pop, 80's goth, 90's hits, punk, EBM, industrial, rock, hardcore, psychobilly, and briefly went through a prog-metal phase when I was 12 years old that thankfully didn't last too long.

I have been creating since I was very young. My grandparents tell me that when I was little I didn't play with dolls like all of the other female children did, but would draw pictures instead. I started taking art courses during pre-kindergarten with friends. I remember practicing for a sidewalk-chalk competition when I was 7 years old. I practiced for hours, inspired by Disney's landscapes in their movies (as a huge Disney fan). I won second place in the contest and it thrilled me. I used to constantly doodle in class as I grew older. I used to like drawing my hands. One year in 3rd grade I drew a mermaid on the chalkboard and the teacher left it up. However it wasn't until I was 14 that I decided to push myself harder. I took a nude drawing course at the Dundas Valley School of Art during the summer for two weeks, where we would constantly draw, and draw, and draw for 6 hours each day, producing piles of paper. My art education at the high school level was not up to par with standards, and I did not feel prepared to attempt entering post-secondary education in visual arts, so I declined a future in that direction. I took an art course in my first year at university and loved it, but I was torturing myself. I now know that I cannot take art and do well in all of my other classes at the same time. I don't know what it is, but the human body fascinates me. It is possibly because I place myself outside of male and female that I am able to see the body for what it really is. There is something about the body, and especially the face, that tell a story of the life the person has lived.

I wish I could draw much more. I know I have a lot more to learn, and a lot more progress to make. I can feel it in me. But for now I am left with impromptu drawings I rush through, just to feel like I have accomplished something and felt good about it for a few days, before I feel discontent with what I have done and have an urge to do it all over anew.